I DIDN’T MEAN TO, IT JUST HAPPENED
I had my first job with a regular paycheck when I was 13 years old. Even before then, I babysat. I have worked all my life. My parents taught me; nothing good in life comes easy and anything worth having is worth working for. So I worked and I worked hard. Nothing really ever came easy for me. As a gymnast in high school I practiced all the time, at the gym and in the backyard. School wasn’t particularly easy either. Honestly, medical school required studying day and night. My schedule as an obstetrician/gynecologist was brutal at times. Abruptly, life as I knew it came to a screeching halt when I became disabled from myasthenia gravis.
Galatians 1:10, “For am I now seeking the favor of men, or of God? Or am I striving to please men? For if I were still pleasing men, I wouldn’t be a servant of Christ.” WEB
God called me to minister in various ways over the years. I have organized and spoken at retreats and women’s events. I have coordinated and participated in mission trips from Missouri to China. I was privileged to teach a unique women’s class for years and led early morning Bible studies at work. Whatever God called me to do always involved striving. Seeing fruit from my efforts never came easy.
Colossians 3:23, “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters.” NIV
This is easy. I am glad I can write. People who are willing to follow and read are an added blessing for which I am grateful. Words just roll around in my head until I can get them out. That’s been happening for years and honestly it kind of drove me nuts. It truly is a gift, not because of any underlying talent, but because I enjoy it immensely. Striving is unnecessary during this season of my life. God has commanded me to rest and not work. He does the work and unbelievably, does it through me. If writing becomes work, I’ll quit that too. But for now, I’ll keep on.
I Corinthians 10:31, “Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatever ye do, do all to the glory of God.” ASV
There are some truths I learned from baking bread: the temperature has to be right, the humidity has to be right and the ingredients must be measured precisely. Kneading dough is physically hard work. Baking a perfect loaf of bread takes time. After all the ingredients are prepared, the dough is placed into pans and allowed to rest. That is when the most amazing process occurs – the dough rises. It rises above the confines of the pan and overflows the sides. When the circumstances are just right, it happens. I think that is what happened to me.
John 6:35, “Jesus said to them, ‘I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will not be hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty.'” WEB
WHAT ABOUT YOU?
Are you in a season of striving? Has God given you a vision that looks nothing like your present reality? That’s part of it too. Be patient and don’t be discouraged. The end result is worth the diligence and hard work. Sometimes the biggest challenge is waiting to see results.
Philippians 1:6, “being confident of this, that he who began a good work will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” NIV