My house looks like McDonald’s. No, I don’t have arches and I’m not making french fries or apple pies. Part of my house is in total disarray, yet I didn’t even notice until I was Skyping a podcast interview and glanced past my own reflection to the wall -kinda yellow and red striped. I’ll tell you the rest of the long story later, but it all started with the toilet (click here if you missed that part). Suffice it to say, everything in my life is in limbo which is a special kind of torture for people like me. But if I can find calm in the chaos, so can you.
ARE YOU OKAY?
My friends are worried. Seriously, I’m afraid something is wrong with me too because I have no right to feel this way. I am okay. Really, I shouldn’t be, but I am. My eyelids open before the sun rises and surprisingly I sleep all night and wake to feel the warmth of peace deep in my soul. Well, at least most days I do.
Philippians 4:7, “and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Jesus Christ.” NKJV
My superwoman cape is at the cleaners this week. I gave myself a break. Double digit voice mails and text messages went unreturned (sorry about that). My inbox is full of unread messages and fortunately most of my bills are autopay or I would be paying late fees. At the last minute, I bailed on my parents to travel to Cajun country for family Easter, uncharacteristic behavior for an over-achieving perfectionist who thinks she can do it all. This new coping technique is grace to self.We always need grace, sometimes we need to give it to ourselves #grace Click To Tweet
Without it I don’t think I could function. Honestly, after the brutality of the last nine days I’m still trying to figure out what day of the week it is. In fact when I recorded my podcast, I got the month wrong (The host was addled, but the guest encouraged my socks off if you want to listen, click here, but remember it’s unedited). Sorry, I checked out of life for a while and now it’s time to check back in, if I can stay calm in the chaos.
Matthew 11:29, “Learn the unforced rhythms of grace.” MSG
My dear friend took both of my hands in hers to pray one of my favorite prayers,
Dear Father we thank you that you knew exactly what was going to happen today before we ever got out of bed
Calm in chaos is rooted in trust. Do you trust God with whatever today holds? Get over that hurdle, then there’s tomorrow. I know God loves me, knows what is best for me and knows the end of the story and I certainly don’t. I don’t even know if I’ll continue to live in this home that’s been wrecked in more ways than one, but God does and He is trustworthy, all the time. My guest on “My Journey of Faith Radio“ this week brought tears to my eyes when she reminded me of the truths she reminds herself:
- God’s grace is sufficient
- It’s not about me
Yeah, that. I needed a reminder too
ON THE RUN
While some are worried about me, others see joy that doesn’t match my circumstances and they know why. It’s because I run. I’m not running from my problems, I’m running to the arms of my Heavenly Father because if I take my eyes off of His sufficiency for one second I quickly come to the end of myself. Anyone know how that feels?
We can compare notes if you want. Bless your heart if you’ve had a week like mine. If your life is in chaos and you feel like running away, start running to your Heavenly Father. And when God seems far away remember, He’s probably not the one who moved.
James 4:8, “Come close to God, and God will come close to you…” NLT
There’s more to this verse, but you probably ought to read it for yourself. That’s what I’m going to do because when I wrote this I felt it, but now I need a refresher.