Take me to the brink. I want to feel the power and hear the rush. We stared over the ledge, mentally measuring the switchbacks.
“Are you sure you can make it?”
No, I’m never sure I can finish, I’m only sure I can start. So that’s what I do-I start. My dad always said, “It’s better to have tried and failed than to never try at all.”
Maybe. Unless you’re three-quarters of a mile down a mountain and your muscles refuse to obey your brain..
WILLPOWER ISN’T ENOUGH
Whenever someone tells me I can’t do this or that, I want to throw a rock at their shin. Don’t worry, you’re safe, my aim is lousy. Besides, I don’t listen anyway. I am like a two-year old who wants to do it BY MY-SELF. But I can’t.
Matthew 19:26, “Jesus looked hard at them and said, ‘No chance at all if you think you can pull it off yourself. Every chance in the world if you trust God to do it.'” MSG
WHEN AMBITION EXCEEDS ABILITY
Sometimes I feel like a failure before I ever start. Can anyone relate? Myasthenia gravis makes me feel broken. My immune system is haywire, my neuromuscular junctions are defective and my muscles are soft. I can’t do what I used to do, then again, most people can’t do what I used to do. If I focus on my inability, I would live in despair. It’s a temptation I have to fight.
The only disability in life is a bad attitude.~ Scott Hamilton
Deuteronomy 31:8, “The Lord is the One who will go before you. he will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you. Do not be afraid or discouraged.” HCSB
I WANT MORE
When I have a few good days in a row, I think I am in remission. You know, always the optimist. Though my health is markedly improved, remission continues to elude me. In some ways, my life is almost back to normal, but my eyes are now open to how far normal is from where God wants me. I’m simply not satisfied with normal any more
Philippians 1:10, “For I want you to understand what really matters, so that you may live pure and blameless lives until the day of Christ’s return.” NLT
HE WON’T LET ME STAY HERE
I am thankful God loves me enough not to let stay where I am. He doesn’t want me comfortable, He wants me to grow. Someday I will look back and be glad the boat got rocked and changed course. Though it’s tempting to want my old life back, complete with flaws, this new dependence and relationship with God is worth it. But it’s hard. Every single day.
Philippians 4:!3, “I can do all things through him who gives me strength.” NIV
On any given day, I am never sure if I can make it to the brink and back. But I know Christ gives me the strength to do the impossible, even if it’s not physical. I don’t listen when people tell me I can’t. You shouldn’t either. They’re totally wrong. What impossible situation do you need strength to change? Only through Christ can you:
FORGIVE THE UNFORGIVABLE
LOVE THE UNLOVABLE
RECONCILE THE IRRECONCILABLE
Philippians 1:6, “Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” NIV
I’ll be honest, being vulnerable and allowing people past your walls into your life and your heart may cause pain. In fact, it may seem like a total failure. But it’s worth the risks. So at least get started. Keep trying, God equips us with everything we need.
When you get there, the view from the top is spectacular.
2 Peter 1:3, “His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence.” ESV