Fatigue is a formidable opponent. It is also foreign to me. Some days I survive by clinging to the hope tomorrow will be a better day.
Lamentations 3:21-23, “But this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning.” ESV
In an effort to wake up my adrenal glands I have been taking Prednisone every other day, which means every other day I can hardly function. Finally, I raised the white flag, emailed my doctor and got permission to change the dose. Some of you are probably laughing because you know I tend to doctor myself and change the dose without permission, but this time I was a compliant patient.
Isaiah 40:31, “But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary. They shall walk and not faint.” NKJV
I keep thinking tomorrow will be a better day. I hope I will wake up tomorrow in complete remission. Maybe tomorrow I won’t feel the side effects from steroid withdrawal. Don’t get me wrong, I am copiously grateful for the progress I have made. By watching me you would not suspect I even had a chronic illness, but then again you only see me on my good days. You don’t see me laying on the couch for hours waiting for today to pass so I can start over tomorrow. I remember what it felt like to live without thinking about my health and I want to be there again.
Psalm 38:10, “My heart throbbeth, my strength faileth me: as for the light of mine eyes, it also is gone from me.” ASV
I have always been an eternal optimist. Hope is good. It keeps me going. My first thought upon wakening is no longer, “I have myasthenia gravis.” That habit stopped about five months ago, probably because the weakness I felt when I first got out of bed has improved. Now, I keep thinking tomorrow I will be able to exercise and start reconditioning. I keep thinking tomorrow I will start a diet and get rid of the extra weight inactivity and steroids forced on me. It couldn’t possibly be the sea-salt, caramel ice cream.
Romans 8:25, “But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.” NIV
Hoping for the future is a good thing, unless I treat it like throwing pennies into a wishing well. Although my hope is ultimately secure in eternity, hope is not a magical concept that promises me I will get where I want to go if I hang on to it hard enough. Honestly, there are some changes I need to make today. I keep thinking I will start tomorrow, but then I am still here.
Hosea 12:6, “What are you waiting for? Return to your God! Commit yourself in love, in justice! Wait for your God, and don’t give up on him-ever!” MSGYou will never finish successfully if you never start #motivation Click To Tweet
Whenever I approach a staircase, I press my lips together and determine if I have the strength to climb before I take the first step. There is no way for me to get to the top if I don’t walk one stair at a time. If I never start, I will stay at the bottom only wishing and hoping I was at the top. So I have a proposition: How about we do this together?
Galatians 6:2, “Carry one another’s burdens; in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.” HCSB
What do you need to start?
- A realistic budget?
- Reconciling an important relationship?
- Breaking the cycle of addiction?
- Getting in shape?
- A diet?
- Daily prayer?
- Time in the Word?
- Serving someone in need?
Here is my list:
- I will commit to cutting back on caffeine so maybe I can sleep better.
- Start each day with a time of worship.
- Eliminate most of the carbs from my diet, except maybe a small dish of sea-salt, caramel ice cream every now and then. Doesn’t a girl deserve an occasional treat?
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Will you commit to specific change, starting today?