INDEX CARDS ARE SCATTERED ALL OVER MY HOUSE
I changed my mind. I said I wanted my index cards put in my casket when I die, instead, I decided I want them handed them out at my funeral, like party favors! Not any time soon though. Don’t worry life expectancy is normal in most people with myasthenia gravis.
Index cards are stashed in drawers, coat pockets, my car’s console, shelves and taped to my mirror. Years ago I began writing Bible verses on them and it changed my life. The only problem with my new plan is they are only legible to a skilled pharmacist or nurse. I made my first C in the third grade, in handwriting. No, they don’t teach scribbling in medical school.
Psalm 119:11, “Your word I have hidden in my heart, that I might not sin against You.” NKJV
BRING THE CARDS!
Lying on a gurney in the Emergency Department, I waited to be transferred to a hospital where specialists were available to treat my disease. My daughter asked what I needed her to bring. To conserve my strength for breathing, I whispered in a barely audible voice, “My purse and my index cards.” Not to get too personal, but I regret not asking for a few other essentials.
Five index cards with verses pertaining to strength were in the console of my car. I wrote them six weeks earlier when I was diagnosed with ocular myasthenia gravis, which caused double vision and droopy eyelids. Unfortunately, I knew the chance of progression to the rest of the body was 85%. An index card was taped to my bathroom mirror,
Isaiah 41:10, “Don’t panic!” I’m with you. There’s no need to fear for I’m your God. I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you. I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you.” MSG
BUCKET LIST TRIP
I permanently transitioned from doctor to patient the day before I was scheduled to leave on a 257 mile bicycle trip. My daughter, along with two friends and myself, planned to ride the Katy Trail over 5 days. I prepared “strength scriptures” to be prayed over me each day. The evening before my hospital admission I looked at those cards and realized no one could decipher my chicken scratch. To the best of my ability, I rewrote them on new index cards. The words were fresh in my mind and my heart. God was preparing me for an adventure, which was not a bike ride.
Isaiah 41:13, “For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.” NIV
WEAK AS A RAG DOLL
Usually I am restless and never still. In fact, I have enough energy to get on my own nerves. But for the next five days, I was unable to move. I was too weak to even hold up my head, much less pick up a quarter of an ounce card. A Bible or a devotional book was like a two ton weight and therefore useless to me. My cards lay in plain sight on my bedside table, but it was unnecessary for me to try and lift a finger. I knew what they said in my head and my heart.Memorize scripture. You never know when you will need it in your heart instead of your hand… Click To Tweet
Isaiah 50:4, “The Sovereign Lord God has given me his words of wisdom, so that I know how to comfort the weary. Morning by morning he awakes me and opens my understanding to his will.” NLT
DON’T WAIT UNTIL IT’S TOO LATE
Lying weak and helpless, I was a stranger to myself and my family on the other side of the sheets. I could hardly lift my fork to my mouth, yet I wielded a powerful sword. I’m thankful I didn’t wait until my world turned upside down to drag out a Bible and try to find some verse to help me survive. I hope you know more than John 3:16 before the storms of life come, as they always do. Be prepared, your life may depend on it.
Ephesians 6:13, “This is why you must take up the full armor of God, so that you may be able to resist in the evil day, and having prepared everything, to take your stand.” HCSB
ARMED BEFORE BATTLE
Imagine you are in the middle of a fierce battle, bullets whizzing by your head, an enemy attacking, and there you are – unprotected. How hard would it be to put on armor? Impossible. Your only option would be to duck and cover or try to run. You can only stand and fight if you are prepared in advance. Victory starts now. Go to the store and buy a stack of index cards, they’re cheap. Write out verses and memorize them, or at least read them often enough to know them in your heart. Carry them around with you, tape them to the mirror and put them in your car or your pocket. Have them handed out at your funeral if you like. Trust me you will need them someday, maybe even today.
:Psalm 29:11, “The Lord will give strength unto his people; the Lord will bless his people with peace.” KJV
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