WHAT DOES SICK LOOK LIKE?
When people know you are ill they expect you to look sick. My disease causes weakness, you can’t see that. Understandably, chemotherapy makes you loose all your hair. Gravely ill people may be cachectic, thin and pale. But, even some terminally ill people may look totally normal. So I guess people are surprised when they hear someone is sick and see them look “normal”. I have been guilty too. I recently saw a young woman with stage 4 cancer who is undergoing chemo. She’s gorgeous! So the first thing I said?
YOU LOOK GREAT!
I didn’t mean to say it, but like so many things, it just popped out. It’s meant as a compliment, as if looking good helps lessen the seriousness of it all. Sometimes I groan when I hear it. Myasthenia gravis alters your appearance. It causes a “snarl” instead of a smile. My eyelids droop, usually my right one is a lot worse and sometimes I can barely keep it open. But most of all, I have a big, round moon face and double chin thanks to prednisone. I just want to look like my driver’s license photo for crying out loud. I know, that’s kind of pathetic. So when people tell me I look good;
I LOOK TO SEE IF THEIR NOSE IS GROWING
Recently, a dear lady said it. Without pausing to let my brain engage in polite conversation, I said, “why do people say that?” It’s not like I don’t have a mirror. I know how I look. She never missed a beat. She said, “Because when I see your face, I see God at work. I see Jesus in your smile.” It made my day.
I FELT BEAUTIFUL
For the first time in a long time I felt truly beautiful, not because of what could be seen in the mirror and not because I was particularly beautiful before. But, she confirmed that beauty comes from the inside. I want people to see that Jesus lives in me. If there is anything good in me, it’s Him. Moses spent forty days on the mountain with God. When he came down his face reflected the glory of the Lord so intensely that he had to cover it with a veil. That’s what happens when you spend time with Almighty God. You soak up so much of His glory that it is reflected to others. Moses spent time with God, basking in His glory. It literally radiated off his face. Myasthenia gravis takes your smile, but, it gives you time to spend with a Holy God who chooses you to be His dwelling place.
I GUESS IT SHOWSI hope so anyway. Solomon’s temple was elaborate and outrageously expensive. When he dedicated it, he said, “But will God indeed live with men on the earth?” (2 Chronicles 6:18 WEB) And God replied in the New Testament that He would dwell in us. We are His temple (1 Corinthians 6:19) . How unbelievable that He would come into our sin-stained lives and fill us with Himself and His glory until it comes shining through to the outside for all the world to see. So for the first time in a long time, I feel beautiful. And if you tell me I look good I will politely say, “Thanks!” and I’ll mean it. If you would like to receive emails when this blog is updated, please enter your address below. I would love to take you on this journey with me.